week 21

Ug.  I can't belive I actually remembered to weigh myself.

271.0

Hobbes died this week.  No holds barred on eating.  Fuck all I'm sad.

week 20

Ok so clearly I've fallen off the waggon.  Lets just hop back on.

Weight 170.2

Went for a walk with mom today.  That was nice.  It'd be nicer if my pants weren't ripped in the thigh giving me some nasty chub rubb.

Week 16

So I'm alittle late >.> yea.  bad me... bad...

267.6

You'd think I'd be more excited about getting back down towards where I've been at my lowest.  But I'm not.  I'll be super stoked when I get down past my lowest.  It'll make this last... What 3?  4 weeks? of going back up much more palatable.  I'm really hoping and wishing to keep going down but it's not really worked yet.  Here's hopeing.

Week 15

Eh.  no time.  Day late on this.

270.4

Too much candy and sweets to think this was going to be down further.  MOAR watter, getting back into the swing of gum instead of snacks.

Week 14

Sooo I tried... and I tried.  But god damnit sweets are so damn good.  I need to find my gum.

171

>.< yea god damnit.  Need that damn gum.

week 13

Uggggh

269.0

So clearly I'm getting into food too much and not drinking enough water.  I've lost my gum so I can't  do the whole, when I'm munchy I'll chew some gum.  I need to get started going back -DOWN- Just bought some size 22 pants that just fit, they are comfortable even though they are snug but they are tight enough that they remind me that I need to loose weight.  Much better than the pants I had been wearing yesterday.  They were size 26's and they barely can hold onto my body.  Unfortunately this week is going to be bad.  we've got the 3rd tomorrow so food at dad's house, The 4th on friday and I'm cooking for the group then.  IDK what I need to do, I just wanna get those numbers down.  I Need to get those numbers down.

Week 12

So it's late and I've not been feeling well.  Had "nearly bronchitis" and they put me on steroids.  I ate like crazy.  I'm still eating like crazy.

167.0

Hey for someone who's been sick and had to eat more than usual to keep from being sick to the stomach, that ain't half bad.  Alright.  tired now.  Bed.

Week 11

So I'm sick.  As a dog.  Upper respiratory and an ear infection.  And last weekend was Andy's marriage so everything is crazy right now.  last weekend I ate like a hog.  This week I've felt like crap

167.4 on the home scale.

So not too bad, I'm keeping trucking.  Lots of water is probably my saving grace for this week.  I have been absolutely CHUGGING water the last few days.  And being that I'm sick I have very little to add to that.  Enjoy

week 10

So this weekend was a bad one for diet.  Went to Chicago and ate a hell of a lot of too yummy food.  So Lets see the damage.

268.2

Hey!  How's that even possible?  I went down!   Well that's awesome.  I suppose I've been chugging the water the last few days so That might be something with that...  Either way, I wanna try and drop another 20 lb's if I can before the end of the summer.  If eating less and drinking more water can help and make that happen?  that would be epic.

More fatness info, had to go out and get new clothes for the bro in law's wedding.  That was a little painful but I ended up with a reasonably cute outfit, new heeled sandals, and some shapewear.  Now... I never tried on shapewear before but hot snot this stuff is kinda fun.  I'm still wearing it.  I got the kinda sorta dress one and it looks like a little black dress for sluts... but now I can be fully dressed in undies.  I'm way too entertained by this.  Well here's to another week of trying to not stuff my face constantly.

Week 9

So this week I've been really really going to town on everything, and it's partially because this weekend is a convention and I'm going out of my mind about it.  Also, yesterday sucked, I was hit in the right side of my face three times.  So on with the weight

169.2

Ok so at least it's not up.  I haven't been drinking my water like I should and I've had a thing about Koolaid lately that I really REALLY need to kick asap.  The water is the biggest screw up this week.  When I chug water all day I eat less cus I'm not hungry.  when I chug water I have to move around more cus I have ta pee a lot more.  Clearly I should REALLY be drinking water if I wanna loose weight.  So I'ma try my damnedest to get mroe water in my mouth and less of the other crap for this next week.  Is it going to work?  Hell no I'm going on a trip to chicago this weekend!  but it sure as hell can't hurt to try.

Week 7 and 8

It's been really busy, but I remembered to weigh myself last week, but forgot to post so Oh well.

264.8 Last week
269.6 This week

So Damnit, Back up to sixty nine.  I'm getting frustrated at present, I mean I know we just had a huge food weekend, but I really REALLY wanna keep going down and food weekends like that really screw that sorta stuff up.  >.<  It's not a big deal really, bouncing back and forth 5 pounds isn't so bad so long as I continue to move that 5 lb's down and only 4.something back up.

EITHER WAY!  I'm gonna try to be really "good" not that today has been super good >.>

Other annoyances. So it's what? The end of May?  Guess who's started figureing out her halloween costume?  Yea that's right, me.  You know why that belongs on this blog?   Cus I'm going to begin measuring myself.

Did you hear that?  Yea that was my self confidence running screaming from the room.  As if the scale wasn't bad enough right?  There's reason of course, I need to know how big I am so I can make the costume.  But of course that comes with the problem of knowing how big I am.  So here's the run down.

Bust          52
Ribs          41
nat waist   47
Hips         57

Yep.  Between my natural waist and my hips I am 10 inches larger. *sigh* Once I've come to terms with these numbers I will be able to joke with myself about them, but right now, All I wanna do is make those last two smaller.  I'm totally cool with having big boobs and smaller ribs.  Totes ok with that.  It's the hips that are really killing me atm.  I have this huge belly out in front and I'm just dieing to get rid of it.  I've started loosing fat in my face and my arms and shoulders.  But that belly hasn't budged.  I'm not going to be measuring myself very often, but I think If I manage to drop 10 or more pounds from my current low, I'm going to remeasure.  cus it would be prudent.  And of course, JUST in case I manage to hit a huge weight drop between now and october, I'm not making any of the end pieces until closer to time.

Week 6 (oops)

So last week was terrifically awful.  Just tremendously not cool.  starting with the death of the hub's gramma and then free flowing into a commission that tried to kill me and now things are finally chilling out.

269.2

So back up again.  I did alot of emotional eating and stressing so I'm not shocked at all that I'm up.  I'm trying to do better this week but really it's been extra hard to keep up with the good eating.  I managed to get several new pairs of pants and I'm looking for them to fit me sloppy soon! XD yes because your current clothes fitting sloppy is epic ^_~

week 5

Only have a few minutes, might expound on the week later... lets get to this right now..

265.8

Hey look at that... down yet more!  I'm always shocked when I continue to go down, I've been so big so long, I'm happy to be going down in weight but I am legitimately surprised to see myself loosing weight.  Got a new pair of pants today, same pant size but they aren't stretch... been a while since I wore pants that didn't have stretch in them so it's a bit of a relearning experience.  I'm working on breaking them in, they are brand new from good will.  but yea, down nearly 2 pounds since last week?  I can sure as hell tolerate that.

week 4

In a hurry this morning but I remembered to weigh myself

267.4

I was a little shocked at the drop, I haven't been a real good girl this last week but I must still be doing right enough.  Gonna try to keep this sorta loss up, we'll see how well that works XD

Week 3

This week's been pure chaos.

270.6

Ok, so I've been a pure piggly wiggly.  Ate a huge lunch twice, and went to dad's and ate myself silly.  I'm not gonna beat myself up over the jump so long as I buckle down and try to do a better job this week, if I can, that'll be way awesome, cus I've been going down and down.  I love it.

Week 2?

Shall I go with that? numbering again?  Yea that'll work for now.  I like seeing how long I can go without screwing up or forgetting.  But let's get right into it

269.0
This really surprised me because I absolutely PIGED out last night.  Just straight up was like NOM NOM NOM!  I also was sopping wet when I took this weight so I'm hoping really badly that I won't bounce up next week and I'll jump down a few pounds due to the fact that I won't have all that bull going on.

Couse the interesting thing is What I'm doing.  I'm almost doing nothing.  I eat when I'm hungry, I try not to eat more than I'm hungry for, keep my snacks down, have gum for when I'm chewy but not hungry... I'm really hoping that I can just keep this slow pace up for a serious period of time.  The longer I keep this up, the more likely I can get down into the low 200's  Low 200's is gonna be significantly smaller pants.  that'll be down into the 18's which -finally- start getting cute again.  If I can get into the high 100's I can start wearing 16's and maybe -MAYBE- even 14's  If I could set an unrealistic goal I would aim for size 9.  But I'll be stupidly happy with myself every pant size I loose.  On the other hand, in the strange occurrence that I -DO- manage to get down that far, I don't wanna go any lower than size 7.  I don't think, in my age and my frame I'd look good back down under the size 9/10 range.  I am just a plump lotta lady to love kinda woman and I have absolutely no desire to be a size anything less than 7.

New goals and stuffs

Ok, so this week I've been very conscious about food and my weight and stuff.  I repaired a pair of my pants and that caused me to decide to try on a pair of my older pants, I'm currently in size 24 but I discovered I could wear my size 22's in a pinch.

Weight
269.2

Hey look at that, all that futzing around and being diligent actually -has- helped, I'm down under 270 for the first time in a while, and certainly the first time since I started this.  I'm aiming (loosely) to be able to wear 22's comfortably by the end of summer.  If I reach that (especially if I get there easily) I will aim for 20's next.  I don't really wanna aim at a weight number, I really just wanna get down in size, my weight has always been high even when I was skinny.

BUT YEA.  Another thing that's really got me wound up about my weight is yesterday I ended up getting conversationed by a woman who apparently had a gastric bypass and now has lost too much weight.... and she just pissed me the fuck off.  I mean, she was talking to my sister and I... we're both big... REALLY?  you think you're going to get sympathy from me?  You're complaining about being down to a size 6 and you expect sympathy?  Not gonna happen sweet heart.

2 weeks this time..

Hurpa durp!

Last week
275 (.something I don't remember, Maybe .8?)

This week
271.0

So this is the lowest I've been since I stared weighing myself and it's honestly given me new hope and vigor to not eat constantly.  It's really ridiculously hard for me to not just munch.  I'm going to try and go out to get myself some gum or some such because I think if I had gum the snacky bullshit might be easier to resist.

Either way.  YAY! down!

Heheee... Whoops, 3 weeks worth of weigh ins?

So... Yea, clearly I was never going to be very good about this but... well this morning I go... Oh damn, forgot to weigh myself... >.< damnit I havn't posted this last three weeks worth of weights

271.4
272.8
273.5

So I'm slowly going back up, I keep trying to eat less but I've been stressed so even if I am eating less I'm retaining it more... But yea.  Gonna weigh myself in the morning tomorrow... Or maybe I'll just say screw it and weigh myself later today... but I've already eaten and I don't like weighing myself when I can dilude myself that the gain is food I just ate

Day 43?

So clearly I'm not even bothering to write down what I'm eating daily anymore.  It's just such a hastle to try and remember everything I've eaten if I'm out of the house for the day, which happens atleast two days out of the week every week and most weeks it'll happen more.  So I'm just gonna post my weight weekly and kinda say how I've been doing.  If I decide to start writing down what I eat, AWESOME.  It helped me keep a handle on how much I eat.  But at this exact moment I really couldn't care.  But I do care about what I weigh even if I don't care about writing what I ate.  I'm trying to keep my intake down so i feel like I'm doing better.

271.6  first thing, naked.  It turns out I am doing well.  But this might have a little to do with me feeling sick for a few days.  but usually I eat like a damn hoover after having been sick because I'm just -so- hungry after having not eaten for a day or so.  So I still count it as a win.

Day thirty six

Well man I have been doing damn bad on this shit... Ok Lets get the anoyance out of the way first.

278.0 yep.  Back up again.

food:
Small chunk of pop corn shimp,
A salad with cheese, dressing and taco meat
A half slice of cheese cake
3 slices of pizza hut, 2 breadsticks and a bunch of buttered crusts with cinnamon sugar

Day thirty five *grumble*

and there's number two

Food

Supper: mc donalds

Day thirty four Aaaah shit.

So I've missed some days.  I'm gonna make two posts ( I think it's two) and hope I can remember that far back then get today going on.

Day thirty three

YAY! lazy day!

Food
early day: some hardies chicken, 2 cookies and some milk
day: more hardies chicken and a buuunch of crackers and cheese

Day thirty two

Oh good lord.  So sleepy today was long and snack filled...

breakfast: the other half of my Genghis grill
Lunchish: some crackers and cheese with peperonies, some sweets (atleast two cookies) and a straweberry
Early supper: three hardies chicien
Party food: some pop and a piece of cake.
Late supperL three slicesof pissa plus some cookies

day thirty one

So I've all but abondoned the pictures... and right now I don't know where I've got my camera hidden... it's probably close by but i can't be asked XD SORRY!

Food:
Breakfast: donut
Lunch (very late) 3 slices of pizza and an icecream cone
Supper: half my ghengis grill bowl.

Day thirty

>.>


Food
7:45 Apple fritter
10: epic "frisco" samich
4:30 crackers and cheese
6:30 6" of subway sammich
8 2 cookies

Day twenty nine

Oh man was yesterday bad.  Like serious face.  But that was all mostly before 11, after that it was fun, but wow yesterday was busy, fast and crazy.  Today's a weigh day and stepping on the scale I look at myself and think "OH PLEASE don't be all the way back up"  because I've been eating alot and I've been eating out.  I've been eating myself stuffed and I really need to stop it.

274.8 Still so Obviously I haven't been eating so much that I've gone up but I've certainly been eating enough that I'm not still going down... which down is where I wanna be.

Foood.
7:40 Some left over tomato soup from yesterday.
11:30 ish through 1 ish: kettle corn.  Thanks mom >.< So yummy though T_T
3ish: hyvee chinese food with some brocoli
8 ish: home made chalupas.

Day twenty eight

Whoops.  Another crazy day and I totally spaced this out.

Breakfast: a bite of chris's lunch and a gem donut
Lunch: Tomato soup
Supper: chicken sammich and fries with a rootbeer

Day twenty seven

Oh man.  Another cleaning day.  Today is worse than the others because it's the boy's room that needs cleaned.

Yums
Breafast(9 ish): 12 oz cappachino >.>
Lunch(12:30) sloppy joe with cheese and a little stuffing
Supper: metro buffet.  It's a biggie.

>.> But I don't wanna take a picture! T_T Ok I'll take one but I won't smile...

Day twenty six

I need to hit the store today, hopefully it'll be nicer today than it was yesterday cus there's so much stuff I need to buy...

noms:
Bacon for breakfast, infact a bunch of bacon.
Lunch I can't remember at this exact moment... Need to get back into writing it down as I eat it.
Supper was a big carb fest.  Stuffing, a tiny glob of mashed potatoes, sloppy joe with cheese on tiny little croissant slice bread things.  Plus a handfull of chocolate chips

I just woke up picture... weirdy smile and all.

Day twenty five

Hey half way, not too bad, it's been about 3 weeks and I've come down what? 7 lb?  Thats more than 2 a week which is pretty damn good.  I just need to keep it up and keep going down ^_^

Food
Breakfast: bacon
Lunch: chilli
Supper: 1.5 chicken sammiches
Game: cocoa

>.> Game distracted me.  I'm getting really bad about taking photos...

Day twenty four

So it was alitle crazy... and I forgot so here's a belated post.

Food
breakfast: one slice of bacon
Lunch: 2 soft shell tacos with a chicken patty split between them, beans, cheese and sour cream
Supper: probably 2.5 cups of chilli with cheese and crackers
Game: Home made cocoa with cappachino in an ill fated effort to get some caffeen and rid myself of a headache

Day twenty three

Cleaning day cleaning day today is a day of cleaning!
Ok so yesterday I weighed myself and  I seemed to be about where I was last week, but it was nine at night and I normally weigh myself in the morning while I'm not wearing clothes... So I weighed myself again

274.8  I like that a little better >.>

Food
Breakfast: Oatmeal, I actually threw half of it away cus I made too much >.< and put too little water in it >.>
Lunch: the remaining pasta and sauce ^_^
supper: TACOOOOS

picture?  I think this is from this day... I'm kinda sorta going back through my camera and being like... OH LOOK! i did take a pic... >.<

Day twenty two

So it's elleven and I just had supper.  My lense from my glasses was apparently not getting enough food... So it decided to hop into my chilli.  Fun day.

Weigh in day... And wouldn't you know it with all the BS that happened today I didn't weigh myself till 9 PM.  So I've had breakfast and lunch... plus I'm wearing clothes...
278.2  So *shrug* I might reweigh myself in the morning just to see if it's the same.

Food
breakfast: Bowl of cereal
Lunch: more noodles and sauce from last night.
Supper: Chilli

Picture?  Iiiiiiiih don't know about that... Maybe...

Day twenty one

Gosh.  I'm slacking :/  It's already 11 and I'm just now posting this.

Food
breakfast: cappachino
Lunch: tomato soup
supper: Pasta with bacon chicken stroganoff

Pic?  Oh I suppose..

Day twenty

Time to wake up?  No thanks.  I Think I'll just stay in bed.

Gruel
Breakfast~ alittle cereal from the kids. Then 3 cookies
3 ish: half a pork steak and some cereal
6: package of fruit snaks
7: half a pork steak and some soup, a hand full of cereal.

So cold... it shows

Day nineteen

Woke to the sound of a bowl hitting the floor (and not breaking! YAY!) That's how you know it's gonna be a good day.  Already cleaned up my bed room some, got some crap out of it that I didn't need anymore...

fud
12: Chilli with cheese, taco meat and crackers.  Yurmy
3 ish: 5 slices of jacks pizza
9 ish: half a pork steak plus a couple bites of the kids leftover pork.

 I've got a pic but it'll have to wait till morning.

Day eighteen

Tax day!  Some day I won't be excited to do my taxes.  But for now I'm excited.

Food
Pasta salad for breakfast + a twix
1 ish Pork chop, the rest of the pasta salad and another twix.
8ish: a bit of everything, Some carrots, few bites of little bit's mac and cheese, half a chicken patty, and a sloppy joe with cheese.
game snack: cappachino.

No pic today, cus It's already 1 am >.<

Day seventeen

Good morning?  Eh.  Bad morning?  Not hardly.  Just kinda sorta morning.  It's Friday... so that's cool.  We've got game tonight and tomorrow, plus we're doing our taxes tomorrow so that's something.  I've been kinda a bad girl about posting quantities and times for my food so I'm gonna redouble my efforts on that.  But yea.  Gotta hit the store and that jazz...

Omnom
11ish: tomato soup
4 Ish: 2 bowls of fruitloops.  What can I say I've been munchy all day...
8 ish: 2 pork chops, some corn and some pasta salad

Pic today actually turned out kinda nice.  Took a while for me to get one where I'm smiling a normal person smile.

Day sixteen

Woke up with a sick tummy, gassy as hell... I'm still gassy but Oh well, What you gonna do?


The food
lunch time Fried rice
after lunch snack Chips
Supper More rice
Random some bites of a pb&j

Almost forgot to take my pic... And since it's late as hell... I look tired as hell XD

Day fifteen

Weigh day T_T

278.4 Back up two pounds but I also had a bunch of chips and stuff last night.  I've not eaten yet this morning but I have been guzzling a bunch of water.  Not beating myself up over 2 lb up, I'm just gonna try harder to keep from snacking so much this next week.  Yesterday I really wasn't particularly good about getting my water, so I'ma try to be better about that.  Baby steps ^_^

Glup!
noon ish? tomato soup and a cheese sammich
8ish: Burger and chicken stripps from hardies (thanks sis)

Took my picture before I weighed myself >.> I was feeling silly... it's first thing.. I look like junk XD

Day fourteen

Blurg.  Too cold to think.

Food
jelly toast
two little arbies sammiches
tomato soup with crackers
twix and butterfinger funsized
chips and dip.

blurg

Day thirteen

So I didn't take my pic all weekend.  Oh well.  I'm not gonna be a hardass about the pics.

Fuuuuuuud
Breakfast: PB&J
Lunch: salad with cheese dressing and a chopped up chicken patty.
supper Tacos

Hmmm... I have a picture that I took that I don't have up but it's dated strangely... *shrug* it'll have to do since I don't remember what pic I took this day as it's now days later

Day twelve

So I forgot to take a picture again... Oh well.  Woke up earlier than I wanted to cus of the kids.

Fud
Whole thing of chicken salad on crackers.
peanut butter crackers

Day eleven

Ugggh! Waking up with nightmares about acres of ticks is SOOOO fun.

Ze fud
Breakfast: Banana bread (6 slices?)
Snack: banana bread (2 slices)
Lunch: 2 chicken sammiches
Supper: half can of chilli with cheese and crackers plus another slice of banana bread (What can I say I love that stuff)

Day ten

So I'm one fifth of the way to the end of my first goal, keeping track of my food for 50 days, that's kinda crazy!  I'm sorta excited.  But enough of that, On to the important stuff, Like how I feel today.  I'm tired.  I might straight up take a nap.  We went to Spamalot at TCR last night and I had a hard time getting to sleep. But hey, it was a blast.

Foooood
11 ish: a slice of left over casserole and a nice sized salad (Wow, healthy much? XD)
6: fun sized twix
7 ish: 3 slices of banana bread
8 ish: 5 slices pizza (atleast I'm full?)
10: fun sized butterfinger

This is undoubtedly the second worst picture I've taken of myself XD I look as tired as I am... plus I have the extra yay of being totally out of focus... So... Win?

Day nine

Today was a bit of a mess... two hour delay at school, didn't wake to my alarm...  At least I got some laundry and dishes done ^_^

Food
Two chicken Sammiches
a big chunk of beef and biscuit casserole

Went to a play today which was part of why today was a bit of a mess... So... MAKEUP PIC!

Day eight

So it's a weigh day... Woke up dreading this a little.  Ok a lot.  With the scale being the only numerical gauge of my health in this situation it is terrifying, it being the only thing that is telling me if I'm actually making any progress.  I'll probably pontificate on how I hate weighing myself more every Wednesday.  But being that I just started this a week ago this was something I was worried about, if my first weigh in was bad, like I'd gained or something then this blog would probably fall off my brain as another fail.

Weight
276.4  Naked and wet, first thing in the morning.
This is a hell of a drop for a week of just pretty much trying to not snack my brains out.  I haven't been more active or cut back on the size of what I'm eating, just tried to keep sugar out of my damn mouth.  And as you have seen, I haven't exactly been trying -that- hard.  Six pounds (even if a little of it is clothes and food) Is pretty damn good.  Honestly I was expecting to be the same or higher.

Today's menu
11:30 ish: Cocoa! ^_^
3 ish:  chicken sandwich, a handful of fruity pebbles and a butter finger
7:30 ish: a sloppy joe sammich.
snackies: 2 fun sized twix

I broke my first pic rule today because of how utterly terrible my first pic was... Eyes closed, angry face and it cut off at my chin.  It really was so bad I decided to go with the first pic where I was awake >.<

Day seven

Bluuurg! Been really out of it today T_T  Tomorrow is a weigh day so >.< we'll have to see how that goes.  I never look forward to stepping on the scale.  Here's hoping that it'll be nice to me...

Eats
Breakfast: Oatmeal with brown sugar and maple syrup
Lunch: two soft shell tacos
Supper: Bowl of spaghetti

Serious face pic today, I'm suddenly breaking out like all hell so I'm really displeased with this photo.

Day six

Ha ha.... MLKjr day so I'm home with everyone...

Ze nom
Breakfast: Chicken salad on crackers (whole can)
Lunch: a few peanut butter cracker sammiches....
Supper: tacos
Snacky: big hot chocolate

A shockingly unamused looking photo of me... Also... red robe... red robe... ^_^

Day five

Woops... forgot to upload a pic yesterday...  Oh well atleast I'm feeling pretty well today.

da fooood
Bunch of ribs for breakfast and for lunch
Bowl of soup and crackers as well for lunch
two chicken sandwiches for supper
Snacked on a few handfuls of chocolate chips too.

Since I forgot my pic yesterday I took an extra embarrassing one today, Blanket pic! Plus goofy face.

Day four

Woke up dry but not coughin! YAY! Saturday!  So this cold lasted about a week, glad it didn't last longer.

Om nom!
9: slice of pizza
11:30: 3 more slices of pizza + 2 dark kisses
Supper: oodles of bbq pork ribs
Game: candy bars (1) big cup of cocoa

Day three

Stiff but not clogged up today, Hopefully this cold thing is almost done cus I'm right sick of being sick.  The coughing is the worst part.  Roughing up my throat and crap.. Uggh.  But oh well.  Feeling more alive and active... Lets try some house work... Oh look I'm sick again ^_~

Noms
9:30 ish: cherry bagel with butter and cinnamon sugar.
1:15 : apple, tbls peanut butter (absent minded snacking)  about two cups of fried rice with sauce
8 ish: 4 slices of Pizza
Durring game: three fun sized candy bars

Pic!
Taken before the car tried to gimmie a heart attack.

Day two

Still sick, but I'm getting better.  It's the cough that really bothers me.  Pretty good day though, got to hang with mom and do a little crafty bits while she worked on patterns.

Food
9:30 ish?: bacon and cheese omelet, probably 2 eggs, mom made it ^o^ And two pieces of cornbread with butter and honey.
3:30 ish: Wendies dollar menu chicken sandwich, some fries, and a 1/4 cup fried rice.
7:30 ish: bout a cup and a half of tomatoe soup and half a tube of crackers, plus a chicken patty (feeling quite full now)
Intermittent: 2 dark chocolate kisses


Slightly better pic today, Still have a bit of a goofy look on my face though... plus... ARM XD

Day one

THE HORROR! XD I should go back and state that I'm going to do this with as much humor as possible, to help keep myself upbeat... >.> Yep.

So I'm sick, have been since... probably Sunday... late Saturday, been coughing like a fiend, not getting great sleep, woke up stiff as a board.  I already ate some food and drank a bunch of water so I'm considering that a few bonus ounces as I go upstairs in a moment and weigh myself.  I am not going to strip down for this so this is clothed.  Please wait while weight is loading...

Oh wow...
282.2
I was actually expecting 300+ so I'm actually rather happy with that number... but that's my starting weight...

FUD
9 ish: About a half cup of Unsweetened oatmeal sweetened with about a teaspoon of maple syrup and two good sized tablespoons of brown sugar.
1 ish:  a good cup a half of spaghetti with meat sauce and an egregious amount of Parmesan.
5:30: dark chocolate kiss
7 ish: bout a cup and a half of fried rice with bbq sauce. and one more chocolate kiss.

I'll add in other stuff (snacks too, I promise ^_^) as I eat it.

PICTAR!  What an awesome day one pic right?  I think I'm gonna insist that I take the first picture I take as long as it's in focus and generally I have to try to take a out of focus pic with my camera.  So whatever I look like... is what I look like.  Today's picture... not so good XD Looks like it's peanut butter jelly time to me >.>  OH YEAAA XD

Baseline

Ok, so I really... really am getting tired of being overweight and more importantly being unhealthy.  I'm gonna -try- making myself a blog about this.  I'm gonna try to take a picture every day and list what I ate, if I did any exercise and how I felt that day.  If I can keep it up, maybe it'll help me, maybe it won't.  I'm not even going to say it's going to be for a long time.  I'm gonna try doing it for like... 50 days.  If I can reach that goal I'ma go for 100.  I'm not gonna weigh myself constantly, once a week, and I'll note if I was wearing clothes or if I'd already ate (like today >.>)  But some things that I'm going to do are as follows.

1. I'm not going to punish myself for having an off day.  There will be cookies.  There will be pie and pizza and days when I can't be asked to get off my ass and do anything.  That's OK.  Just pick it back up tomorrow and keep trying!

2. I'm not gonna starve myself.  I'm not gonna diet.  I'm going to try and reduce the number of calories I'm taking in and move around more.  Diets are short term and I'd like long term.  I will change my diet not go on a diet.  I need to eat more salads, more veggies, more good and less portions of the heavy duty stuff that I jam in my face constantly.

3. I'm gonna drink water!  I go in spurts drinking water.  I need to make a habit of actually getting up and filling my bottle when it gets empty, this is the one thing I -should- be hard on myself about, I shouldn't just sit there and not drink anything cus I'm too lazy or involved to go get my water, which is only 10 foot away.  There are so many things that feel better when I remember to actually get my water, I wanna feel that rather than just sit on my ass and dry out.

4.I'm gonna have a sense of humor about it!  I've got to.  I'm big, I'm fat, I'm still beautiful to my husband.  Anything beyond that last one is just things I'm doing for or to me, and I'd want to do things -for- me not -to- me.  So I'm going to laugh about this.  If I get saggy some place and it makes a funny lookin spot... OH WELL! it's funny, the hubs likes to grab my big ole belly and tickle me, I love to laugh.  LETS LAUGH ABOUT IT!

5. I'll add more if I feel I need to.  It's ok not to know the future, and I'll get there some time and I can look back and be like "This needs more"  it's cool.

Now onto day one's post.