week 4

In a hurry this morning but I remembered to weigh myself

267.4

I was a little shocked at the drop, I haven't been a real good girl this last week but I must still be doing right enough.  Gonna try to keep this sorta loss up, we'll see how well that works XD

Week 3

This week's been pure chaos.

270.6

Ok, so I've been a pure piggly wiggly.  Ate a huge lunch twice, and went to dad's and ate myself silly.  I'm not gonna beat myself up over the jump so long as I buckle down and try to do a better job this week, if I can, that'll be way awesome, cus I've been going down and down.  I love it.

Week 2?

Shall I go with that? numbering again?  Yea that'll work for now.  I like seeing how long I can go without screwing up or forgetting.  But let's get right into it

269.0
This really surprised me because I absolutely PIGED out last night.  Just straight up was like NOM NOM NOM!  I also was sopping wet when I took this weight so I'm hoping really badly that I won't bounce up next week and I'll jump down a few pounds due to the fact that I won't have all that bull going on.

Couse the interesting thing is What I'm doing.  I'm almost doing nothing.  I eat when I'm hungry, I try not to eat more than I'm hungry for, keep my snacks down, have gum for when I'm chewy but not hungry... I'm really hoping that I can just keep this slow pace up for a serious period of time.  The longer I keep this up, the more likely I can get down into the low 200's  Low 200's is gonna be significantly smaller pants.  that'll be down into the 18's which -finally- start getting cute again.  If I can get into the high 100's I can start wearing 16's and maybe -MAYBE- even 14's  If I could set an unrealistic goal I would aim for size 9.  But I'll be stupidly happy with myself every pant size I loose.  On the other hand, in the strange occurrence that I -DO- manage to get down that far, I don't wanna go any lower than size 7.  I don't think, in my age and my frame I'd look good back down under the size 9/10 range.  I am just a plump lotta lady to love kinda woman and I have absolutely no desire to be a size anything less than 7.

New goals and stuffs

Ok, so this week I've been very conscious about food and my weight and stuff.  I repaired a pair of my pants and that caused me to decide to try on a pair of my older pants, I'm currently in size 24 but I discovered I could wear my size 22's in a pinch.

Weight
269.2

Hey look at that, all that futzing around and being diligent actually -has- helped, I'm down under 270 for the first time in a while, and certainly the first time since I started this.  I'm aiming (loosely) to be able to wear 22's comfortably by the end of summer.  If I reach that (especially if I get there easily) I will aim for 20's next.  I don't really wanna aim at a weight number, I really just wanna get down in size, my weight has always been high even when I was skinny.

BUT YEA.  Another thing that's really got me wound up about my weight is yesterday I ended up getting conversationed by a woman who apparently had a gastric bypass and now has lost too much weight.... and she just pissed me the fuck off.  I mean, she was talking to my sister and I... we're both big... REALLY?  you think you're going to get sympathy from me?  You're complaining about being down to a size 6 and you expect sympathy?  Not gonna happen sweet heart.

2 weeks this time..

Hurpa durp!

Last week
275 (.something I don't remember, Maybe .8?)

This week
271.0

So this is the lowest I've been since I stared weighing myself and it's honestly given me new hope and vigor to not eat constantly.  It's really ridiculously hard for me to not just munch.  I'm going to try and go out to get myself some gum or some such because I think if I had gum the snacky bullshit might be easier to resist.

Either way.  YAY! down!